Still moving forward

Wow its been a long time. We are still here and moving a long strong. I have had some people ask me to please update my blog so here we go. The boys and I are doing great. Life is so busy, my days are filled with church, my school, homeschool, running kids to school, doing daycare, kids to soccer games, bible study, kids to band practices, and the usual homework, dinner, cleaning. I will admit the month of November had me exhausted. My calendar had appointments not only daily but multiple times a day. One week I think the most we where home was 2 hours other then at bed time. I really do not like to keep a full calendar like that. Thankfully the week of Thanksgiving gave me a break from school for the boys and I and gave me a time to refresh. December looks much better and so far is much more manageable. I am loving college. Right now my classes are all online only needing to go to SCC sometimes. I love the freedom this gives me of being able to do school when it works for us. I have two assignments left to finish this quarter and then I am done until January 8. Bronson is doing great with homeschool and I love having a side kick with me all day.

As 2013 gets close to ending, it has been an amazing year for us. I think one of my best yet. I think it has more to do with my attitude and changes in myself then anything. If you looked at it from the outside, we have a smaller house, less money, crazy business, and just well parenting 5 boys alone but there is calmness in our life now. Happy, peaceful, contentment, thankful, these are words I would now describe us. I think I had come to such a dark place with anger and bitterness, learning to appreciate little things really helped me come out of that. I have learned to let little things make me so happy such as the other day going and purchasing our first snow shovel. Such a small, dorky thing but it made me smile. I even enjoyed going out at 5:30 am to use it. The boys didn't find as much happiness in this as I did. go figure. Speaking of the boys, they are healing as well. Atley came home from school yesterday and said "I am so excited!" I asked him why and he said "I don't know"! I know just how he feels, we can look forward and be excited, for nothing, for everything, for life.  I know there will be hard times, we all still cry sometimes, I get overwhelmed sometimes, I still get angry about things sometimes but nothing like it used to be. I can honestly say we are right where God wants us. Again I keep being asked if I am ready to start dating again and the answer is NO WAY!!!! why mess with the happiness here now. The kids don't need that right now. I am loving making new friendship, growing as a person and allowing my kids to have me to themselves. I feel that it would be unhealthy to expose them to me dating and honestly I don't have time. Maybe someday but that's a big MAYBE. wow never thought I would be content alone. ok well there is the update hope to add more soon.